she's gone

A boy around 10 was sleeping soundly when suddenly his sister came barging in. The bright atmosphere turned to dark. The boy was woken up by the sound of the door. He saw tears coming out from her elder sister eyes. "Please God, no..", the boy thought to himself. But he could say none. His voice was stuck in his throat. He saw this coming. His sister sat beside him on the bed.

"She's gone...she's really gone this time..". His teary eyed sister managed to say.

The little boy felt something so horrible that he couldn't say anything else except from crying. He wasn't the type of boy who's weak enough to shed his tears in front of  someone else. But in this case, it was really something. For the first time in the world, he felt lost. He knew this would happen but he didn't expect it to be this hard. He didn't know he's going to feel empty like this.

"She left me once, and now she left me for good. I couldn't sneak out to meet her anymore like I used to...She's...gone..", the boy said to himself. He needed to register this new piece of information in his head.

On the bed, the brother and sister hugged each other, until they knew that it was time to get up.

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It was this dream that the boy faced. He remembered everything from the dream. The room, the bed sheet, the door, his sister..The dream really occurred to him few months later. He realised that the dream served as a reminder to him, and that he should be prepared. For whatever is happening, he could make into full use of the time left to be with his loved ones, and do the right thing. He knows that.

i'm such a noooooooooooobbbb!!!

how can i be a follower of my own blog?? sorry but i think it happened last night when i tried to follow someone's blog...hahaha i'm really proud of myself now...sheeshhhh

and now, i don't know how to not follow my own blog..so i guess, i'll just let me follow myself..(that doesn't sound right....). oh what the hell...

whatever happens, happens. PEACE!!!

what is this feeling?? ....hunger....

one thing people should never know about me is I don't know how to cook. *well there you go, miss "you-should-never-know things-about-me"*. simple stuff like mee or water, rice, frying stuffs..that I can do, (duhh). Who doesn't, right? right??.

....BUT I once made a caramel pudding and it turned out to be just purrrrrrrrrfect!!!!! *drooling again* oh yeah..I have a really sweet tooth, so caramel pudding is one of my faves =). I thought if I want to learn how to cook, then I would have to start with the ones I like.. THEN I cooked macaroni with a local flavour in it (a lil bit spicy, just the way I like it).

I DON'T CARE if you people think those 2 are the easiest one !!!
It's a stepping stone for me. I never learn how to cook before due to several reasons (lets just say, there was no one to teach me and I was too little to start it all by myself). But really the reason behind the "why" is heartwrenching to me and I prefer to not to talk about it. Maybe someday??
BTW, I made it by referring to my mom's old book and a lil help from my big sis =).

well the thing is..I AM FEELING HUNGRY. right now! so what i'm going to do is..fry some chicken nuggets like I alaways do..So, if you have any suggestion on how to make a simple yet tasty food, please pleaseeee share with me. =))

Living songs

Went through some songs last night.. Found out that they may be jusssst right for the people I know. =P
So, I'm going to split it into 2 sections; your song and ringtone.

"your song" is the kind of song that I feel is right for that particular person. The message that I want her/him to hear...or the song that perfectly described her/himself.
"ringtone" is the kind of song that I want to hear when they call me on the phone..hahah

So, here we go..

                                       your song                                                   ringtone

ckin             When I look at you ; Miley cyrus                      Malaysiaku Gemilang

yennade       Live like we're dying ; by kris allen    Joget dimanalah jodoh ;by alimamak

ikah              Never grow up ; by taylor swift                        Raya ;by Jalil Hamid

farah             These small hours ; rob thomas                    Insyaallah ;by maher zain

fareha          Lucky ; by jason mraz & colbie caillat                    Awas ;by KRU   

sinchan                         Negaraku                              crank that soulja boy ;by soulja boy

tuh je la...tulih name banyak-banyak pun bukannye org kenal...

As for me..my song would be "butterfly fly away" by Miley Cyrus..yeap I know.. I know..but this one is great!!

p/s: kepada sesiapa yang tidak berpuas hati...terima jelah..suka hati akulah nak letak apa, ini blog aku...kalau nak balas dendam, buatlah blog sendiri ye meknon-meknon..

edit: baru sedar hodoh betul yang kotak putih tu..saya budak baru belajar..hehe

Numb and Dumb ?

I'm allowed to feel numb and dumb at the same time on any day, right? I mean, come on...humans are allowed to feel like that once in a while. Although I don't remember how many times I've felt like this before, I know that I don't want to ever feel like that again. Feeling numb is not pleasant as you can't feel anything around you, let alone feeling dumb..SOOOO, what the hell is my point??

I don't know

wtf??

ok ok..continue..

Do you know the feeling of giving up? I know the term " giving up" is not really an optimistic one, but..you know, once in a while, we feel it. Like totally..a loser..so what? being a loser can be beneficial to us if we know how to deal with it. Losing can actually make you strong. Especially when it comes to losing something..or rather..someone that you care the most. Somehow, we manage to get by.

Well what I'm trying to say is..I feel numb and dumb when I am giving up, or losing something I love. feel like there is nothing I could do about it. It's true if it's about death. There is nothing I could do about it. BUT..I could change the outcome by living a contented life.

Giving up..that's a whole different story..As I said earlier, sometimes we are on the verge of giving up. Given a little push from the back, we'd be tumbling down.
However, I always tell myself this: "Awesome People Never Give Up. Be Awesome! "

My Annoying Friends...but they're MY annoying friends

Bahasa jiwa bangsa.

saya ada kawan.
kawan saya ramai.
antaranya ialah ikah.
lepas tu cikin.
lepas cikin fareha pulak.
lepas fareha yennade pulak.
datang pulak farah
.
saya bosan jadi layan saje lah blog ini.
saya sambung balik cerita.

kawan-kawan saya ini sangat sengal kesemuanya.
saya kadang-kadang je sengal.
tak selalu.
saya kurang suka dengan cikin sebab die gelak macam Doraemon.
tapi bila die gelak macam tu saya pun rasa nak gelak.
die suka tangkap gambar banyak-banyak.
bajet lawa.
tapi bila saya rindu,
gambar itu juga yang saya cari.
sekarang pasal ikah pulak.

ikah nih pandai simpan rahsia.
tapi saya lagi pandai korek rahsia.
saya tak suka die sebab kalau kita tak tanya dia tak bagitau.
buat semua terasa.
tapi kalau nak keluar ramai-ramai.
mesti nak jumpa dia.
itulah penangan kawan paling lama,
yang saya kenal sejak kecik.

Fareha pulak saya nak cerita.
sentiasa bangga dengan lesung pipinya.
bajet cun.
saya tak berapa berkenan dia ni.
sebab kalau bercerita tak ingat dunia.
tapi kalau duduk sorang-sorang,
malam-malam sunyi,
mesti nak dengar die bercerita.

yennade punya giliran pulak.
saya pun tak berape berkenan dengan dia ni.
dengan pekaknya,
kalau cerita pun terkeluar tajuk,
tapi kalau apa-apa,
saya mesti nak telefon dia dulu.
mintak pendapat dia
boleh tahan lah..

orang paling alim dalam kumpulan kami ni farah
kenal sejak tadika lagi
saye tak suka jugak dia nih
rajin sangat telefon orang
kacau je orang nak skodeng 
tapi kalau dia tak telefon
rase lain macam pulak
macam lagi best bila ade nama dia keluar kat skrin telefon.

saya dah cakap,
saya bosan.
hasil nukilan ini memang 100% buah fikiran saya.
kalau ada sesiapa terase
silalah jangan terasa
kalau terasa jugak
jom kita keluar ramai-ramai lagi
biar hilang tensyen
kalau tak..
saya pulak yang terasa
sebab kaki dah nak melangkah keluar dari Malaysia.
bila lagi nak berjumpa..

cuma 1 je saya nak cakap
kalau ada sesiapa cari pasal dengan kawan-kawan saya
tak kira nama-nama yang di atas
atau pun yang tidak disebut,
YOU'RE DEAD..

p/s: for privacy reasons, I purposely do not want to publish your pictures here. I hate publicity, that's why I'm not a singer or an actress eventhough I'm really talented...(kuang kuang kuang...)

A lesson from cheetah

I've always been so keen on animals. I always know I'll work with them somehow when I get older. I know I will *dramatic music starts playing* I always know that we human can learn from them. After all, we're kinda animal too. well, kinda..


Cheetah is the fastest animals on land to date. Don't exactly know how fast they are though but I'm pretty sure they're about 110km/h (haha I'm such a dope). I know there is this fish that could beat cheetah, but that's...a whole different story (not exactly what I want to talk about haha). When I was a wee one, I used to wonder that if a cheetah is the fastest animal on land and the best predator, then how come they're on the verge of extinction? Illegal poaching aside, I mean, how come they seemed to always die out of hunger? Cheetahs run like wind..they can catch preys that are bigger than them. No other animals could beat them.


Off course, there is balance in every God's creation. Chinese believe in Ying Yang. Cheetah has to pay for the price of being the fastest among all. After all those running and catching the prey, they become tired. Really really tires..tired until they couldn't do anything if a bunch of coyotes come and take over the prey/carcass. They could only watch the scumbag coyotes eating away all of their hardwork.


Don't you think it's a lil bit of a tragic that we human live exactly like that?

what i honestly think (out of the blue)

I HONESTLY THINK..i don't know know how to write a blog (duhh). As the name goes "mostly random" i hope everyone gets the picture..

I honestly hate stupid people, and the word stupid is very subjective..and mean. For example, think of a situation in which a mother went to steal from an elderly to support her children. Some would say she's stupid for stealing from people, you know, not a very good role model to her children. Some would say she's desperate and she really need to do it. I wouldn't say I wouldn't judge her based on her actions. to be HONEST, I would say "Is she nuts? Now her children would also be useless just like her." ...or something like that. Then again, I never really experienced something like that.. I eat all the time, I have a good home, good family, good education..(Thank god..very thankful for that)..ermmm what are we talking about again?..ooh yeah..stupidity is subjective..I think the best thing to do is, ask ourselves some questions before we want to do stupid things (which is subjective..),
If I do this, would my loved ones be proud of me?
or even..would I be proud of myself?
Can I live with it for the rest of my life?


well that's all (that's random)